A Life's Journey (continued)
My road to having River of Tears Published
River of Tears, as I have stated, was
a long journey in and of itself in its writing stages alone. (Its publishing
stage is a whole different story) When I started writing it I was doing
it more for myself. I had to get those feelings I had inside of me,
out. The only way I knew and still to this day was to write them. Be
creative and build my own world, making it what it is now.
Back in November, while browsing the
Internet, I came across a fairly new site and they were sponsoring a
contest. The winners would win a nice sized publishing package. So of
course I read the rules and thought to myself that River of Tears would
be the perfect candidate.
The story has a strong intriguing plot,
interesting characters, lots of action and yes, even love. However,
at this point in the game the story was not finished. If you can recall
it was still in the box with the other unfinished stories, however I
was at that time working with Behind Blue Eyes.
Now, Behind Blue Eyes is a huge three
series project, there was just no way for me to get that book done by
then and hope to see it win a contest as it was. I don't think the sponsors
wanted a three part series anyway. They wanted something like River
of Tears.
I noticed that the cut off date was
January 15th. It was November. I said what the heck, I have
time.
Time is an important word here. Time
is the one thing many of us run short on; time is the one thing we all
wish we had more of. But hey, remember it was November the deadline
was months away. Yeah right.
Anyway, I pulled River of Tears out
of the box and began typing it up. Don't forget, I write all of my stories
on paper first. I find that I can concentrate better if it's just me,
my paper, and my pens. I love my computers, however I have no control
at all whatsoever. That means that many times, even in the middle of
an important scene or what have you, I'll run to the Internet. Before
I know it, an hour has passed and I've lost that time. Of course I'm
doing research, but it wasn't something that couldn't have waited till
I got to it. This is just a small example.
Well, there I was, it was mid-November,
and I started typing River out. I believe I had the first six chapters
on paper and that was it. Those six chapters needed to be rewrote and
of course I wasn't finished with the story so I was already behind and
did I know this? Nope. I was sure I was just fine.
Now, I don't know if you're aware of
this or not but when a writer writes, they sometimes run into, what
I call road blocks. These so-called roadblocks can still a writers mind
for days, for weeks, sometimes months, and years. A lot depends on their
environment. I know if I have a lot of personal stress running on around
me I can only ignore it for so long before it affects me and my writing.
When it happens, I'm frozen. It's not that I can't write it's more like
my brain's creative side shuts down allowing only room for the stress
that's happening. When that happens I get so angry that there are times
I really want to find a corner and just scream. It's not often that
this happens but when it does, it does.
I spend a lot more time with my writing
than I do anything else, (hubby never has to wear dirty socks and hasn't
lost one pound) even when I'm in a rut. I push myself until that stress
that threatens to stop me is the one making room for my creative side
to take control. I believe the longest I've been at a standstill since
I stopped working two years ago, lasted maybe two weeks. This was at
the time I decided to work on River.
Once I rewrote the first six chapters,
I had a few personal things come up and I fell into that rut for two
weeks. I could get nothing from my characters. They were hiding. By
the time I found them again, we were on our way back home to Denver
for the holidays. Back home was the magic I needed. I needed to see
my grandkids; I needed to see my family. Though I didn't get a lot accomplished
while on vacation with River of Tears, I did connect with my plot and
my characters in a whole new way. A bright new world had opened and
it was all due to my attitude.
I was treating the stress as the enemy
it is and I allowed it to rule me. I allowed it to control me and my
mind and once I figured out that's what was going on. I took another
approach and wow was I on a roll.
I had that story finished by January
fifteenth and had it submitted into the contest.
Here's where the fun begins………………
To be continued………………